my brown child

the closer it gets to august the more i want to spend time with faith. i anticipated telling the chief about moving to provo for school..because of my brown child. everytime i would see her run around the house, or her get mad cause i would tell her she had clothes to put away..i would just think there is no way i could leave her.. but in life you see we have to move on. she would be starting kindergarden anyways this new school year, so we wouldnt be able to have our daily "wait for me to eat breakfast so we can have breakfast together" or "lets catch up on all the disney movies that i have forgotten about" but its still going to be harder than i want it too. i am going to miss her snuggling up on the couch with me while we watch a movie, or her going grocery shopping with me, or spending the day with me after work and watching old movies on my bed, or sticking her head out my window as we drive down the road. i am going to miss a little 5 year old more after only knowing her for one year, than i have ever missed any of my friends from back home that i have known since i was 10. every day i see her i make sure i hug her. i make sure she knows im going to visit her. sometimes when i look at her, i want to cry. its pathetic, but its true. i honestly love my little brown child more than anything. i try not to show favoring with the kids cause i mean thats rude, but i mean if you just look at her i mean your heart just kinda melts. and now when i look at her my heart breaks..

because of her cute fro and perfectly squared teeth

 or that she has the ability to look like a smurf that is high..impressive

 or my all time favorite..her monkey face

i love my little screech so much, i might just take her to school with me.