i have a bad habit of letting my phone die

i have been listening to pandora for so long that it stopped playing music and asked if i was still listening? i guess daydreaming while eating strawberries and nutella you can get a little lost in time. i raced home from church and was honestly taking off my dress as i was running up the stairs. it was one of those sundays. I put on a shirt and some shorts and jumped into bed and turned on thats 70's show. if i were to time travel, it would be to the 70's. although anytime i go to my grans house i basically did just time travel to the 70's, seriously flower wallpaper and the stairs to the basement is that mustard color carpet and her fridge is yellow. its quite groovy if i would say so myself. best part about all of it, the 70's clothes are coming back into style now too. id like to kiss that persons head who made that happen. I have been pretty stressed this week with not having a car and figuring out all this junk with school. i have even neglecting writing an email to a boy all the way in the philippines for the past two weeks. writers block..me? i know it sounds ridiculous but tis true. i have also neglected the blog and i deeply am sorry. nothing particularly interesting has happened in my life in the last two weeks. but this week britney gets married and i am so excited, i haven't been to a wedding since my sisters and that was almost two years ago. i love the way weddings are basically a slap in the face to all those single people out there..ME. no worries my stud will come when hes needed, and hes not needed right now i presume. august is tomorrow and so is my dads birthday. happy birthday charles you're 65 and offically old. 

1. i have become obsessed with the gas station down the road..dr.pepper and riesens are a weekly ritual now

2. the cows on my way home from church

3. rasberries, strawberries, and bananas for dinner last night. whoo hoo

4. nutella, bananas, and strawberries for dinner tonight. i am starting to like my fruit for dinner habit

5. eva saw me rush upstairs with my dinner so she came up right behind me.. "can i have stawberrrry" and i just couldnt resist her cuteness

6. my dinner friday night, cause obviously none of the kids like watermelon..weird, i know.

sytycd

i use to watch so you think you can dance religiously.

and its the only thing that makes me want to be in a studio all day long again

this choreography literally took my breath away.

the lake of the bears

1. sunflower tables & chocolate muffins

2. little briggs water skiing, hes 3 and such a stud

3. wakeboarding like a pro

4. seeeeeeeester

bear lake is one of my favorites.

im on a boat

hyrum state park is where its at.

even if its the size of my parents backyard or only half the kids will do any water activity

unless you bribe them with mcdonalds or newman bucks which aren't even real bucks.

i got a nice little tan though. and the last 5 hours of work were a piece of cake!

& im off to bear lake tonight which means im gonna get even blacker.

everyone remember to thank the pioneers for the holiday i have on monday for which

i do not have to rise at 8 and slave away. pioneer day is a holiday in utah..up top mormons

happy friday.

im lovin' it

today i was granted the privilege of only having 6 of the kids all day, and only 5 of them for lunch.

we celebrated this beautiful tuesday with outside dining at mcdonalds

i am not a fan of mcdonalds but i will eat it because the new #five is da bomb. i wouldnt lie

the mcdonalds was also vintage lookin and we all took turns playing would you rather

the boys would rather kiss a dog rather than girl? strange men these newmans are.

also utah is known for the biggest dandelions on the planet earth..it was literally the size of a babies head.

what makes you smile?

i have been doing a lot of pondering about life. this is what happens when you move twice in less than a year..ya have a big ol' goose egg amount of friends. i tell most of my secrets to a 5 year old and a 9 year old is basically the new redhead without the beautiful head of red. my sister who i fought all the time with when i lived within a mile radius of her i now miss more than ever and my mom is 2000 miles away. i like to think im a optimist. i know that not everything will be unicorns and rainbows, but wouldn't that be the life? unfortunately we live in a very sick time in the world. so i have to fill my head with silly thoughts and think positively. and smiling at everything helps..a lot.

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the smell of brownies when they're coming out of the oven.taco soup.puppies.fat babies.white cars.the beach.my family.my brown child.the lake.laying on the trampoline at night and watching the stars.country roads.working out.pandora.twitter.blogging.books.the smell of flowers.country music.hot boys in big trucks.walmart at two in the the morning.eminem.my redheadfriend.soccer.temples.sacrament.concerts.long drives.cookout.bojangles.southern accents.the sun.hand written letters.quotes.the card section at target.my movie collection.fishing.loula&cami.netflix.the seversons.elephants.black babies.my rockingham boys.africa.the sound of music.mormons.the griffiths.amy&margo.benandjerrys.forever21.eden.el parrel.train.the newmans.cupcakes.jimmy johns.mr fain.jamba juice.strawberries.the zoo.roadtrips.clouds.my flip flop collection.hugs.antique shops.deep conversations.laughing till your stomach hurts.sleeping in.wifi in restaurants.guitars.my friends.sunday.little bailey girl.sunday afternoons.wendy fries and shakes.cheerwine.

HAVE A HAPPY WEEK

and dont forget to smile.

my brown child

the closer it gets to august the more i want to spend time with faith. i anticipated telling the chief about moving to provo for school..because of my brown child. everytime i would see her run around the house, or her get mad cause i would tell her she had clothes to put away..i would just think there is no way i could leave her.. but in life you see we have to move on. she would be starting kindergarden anyways this new school year, so we wouldnt be able to have our daily "wait for me to eat breakfast so we can have breakfast together" or "lets catch up on all the disney movies that i have forgotten about" but its still going to be harder than i want it too. i am going to miss her snuggling up on the couch with me while we watch a movie, or her going grocery shopping with me, or spending the day with me after work and watching old movies on my bed, or sticking her head out my window as we drive down the road. i am going to miss a little 5 year old more after only knowing her for one year, than i have ever missed any of my friends from back home that i have known since i was 10. every day i see her i make sure i hug her. i make sure she knows im going to visit her. sometimes when i look at her, i want to cry. its pathetic, but its true. i honestly love my little brown child more than anything. i try not to show favoring with the kids cause i mean thats rude, but i mean if you just look at her i mean your heart just kinda melts. and now when i look at her my heart breaks..

because of her cute fro and perfectly squared teeth

 or that she has the ability to look like a smurf that is high..impressive

 or my all time favorite..her monkey face

i love my little screech so much, i might just take her to school with me.

rainbows and butterflies

today it rained, hard. i was just arriving in logan and it was a sunny saturday on the other side of the canyon and then as soon as i pull in the drive way..it was as if someone dumped a huge bucket of water and wind on us. i sat in my car debating if i wanted to get wet or let my car battery die.considering i run as fast as a kenyan, i went inside. i was greeted by a chunky baby. mason is my dream, seriously. i pray my kid will be as handsome and fat when he/she is 5months old. i rewarded myself with jimmy johns and picked up $128 dollars worth of chinese food for the familia. {reason 428749823 im only having 3 kids} the sweetest chinese man even took it to my car. made my day. then we went to hastings to rent some dvds and the cashier obviously hated her life. she was rude. on the drive home from the mandarin garden i saw the biggest rainbow ever. made my day again after the rude cashier ruined it. and tomorrow is my first sunday in my new ward and im scared. but i gave stephen a fashion show of all my sunday best and i believe we have a winner. hes the only guy who is completely honest to me other than my father and idiot brothers. so obviously we would play project runway. and caleb gets ordained as a deacon tomorrow..is that what its called? i dont even know, thats when you know you have been in a singles ward for too long.

have a happy rest of the weekend.

L O V E

I still have not taken a shower from when i worked out 4 hours ago. that does make me a completely gross person doesn't it? But thats not whats important, i am severely confused about one specific thing. You got it. love

The majority of the women in this world think and care way to much. I have tried my part in saying I was going to give up on caring and thinking and as anyone should know it lasted eh maybe an hour. As a psychology major I am devoted to learning more about what processes the brain to think certain things and why we react to this or that and so on and so forth. For instance, today a woman was given the verdict of being not guilty of killing her 2 year old child, quite frankly.. i believe she did it. If you watched the trial and looked at the evidence you would have to be stupid to not see that that woman is a monster. Its alright though, she will have a higher power to judge her one day and it ain't lookin' pretty sweetie. I am getting off topic like none other..obviously you can tell my head is in a lot of places tonight..

Why do people say they're not in love with someone but they obviously are because they react to what the person does in a certain manner. Why do people do certain things just to please someone when they are not concerned for their own happiness? I have all these questions regarding so many things and no its not because this is an open diary and everything I write on this is just specifically related to my life. BECAUSE THIS IS NOT IN ANY WAY RELATED TO ME.

I would honestly say that it would be stupid for a person to come up to me and ask for advice on well, love. I have only had one legitimate relationship, where i have actually called someone my boyfriend {we even made it facebook offical..and thats when you know its real} but I have only been in love once, or so I thought then it was love. Now that I am so wise beyond my years and look back on the foolishness of my past I ask myself .."Is that really love?" and to be honest, if it is..dont sign me up. So I have come to the conclusion for myself that I know nothing about love. I don't understand boys, I dont know why they say one thing and mean another and I definitely don't understand why they stink so badly? my brothers room, eugh. naasssty. 

"Some people are mean't to fall in love with each other, just not mean't to be together.." 

mom, the actual sentences are for you.

cami this whole post is for you only because 
this is what we discussed today. miss you 

happy fourth, happy weekend

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA 

thats about my 500th time saying that this weekend.oh and this was a long weekend. friday to monday..shouldn't every weekend be that long? i think so. who do we talk to to extend weekends? 

anyways i spent my weekend at bear lake with the severson side of stephanies family. tubing and jetsking were the highlights of the weekend. steph flipped the jetski cause she forgot that there was a boat heading straight towards us..so i screamed and she turned super fast and BAM im in the water. and as soon as my lifejacket bobbed me back up to the top of the water stephs face was the first one i saw and i almost punched her..flipping the jetski back over was probably a sight to see. kicking and cursing were apart of the whole "flipping the jetski" back over. why is everything so much heavier when its in water? and why are lifejackets so annoying? stephanie and i shared the same air mattress and thats always fun cause now that i live forever away from her we stay up and talk all night long like we did when we actually were friends and she wasn't married. {justin basically ruined everything} we watched shrek, the last one..ya know the forever far away or whatever. it was funny. i wish my bestfriend was an ass that made funny jokes all day. thats a hint to you red. we went to church at the bear lake ward on sunday and only went to sacrament..{im already convinced every weekend should be like this one..what do ya think?} went back to the cabin and took the best sunday nap of my life, and then we proceeded in playing games with the family all day. kickball and red rover. we were convinced someone was gonna get hurt as we played red rover and they were right. braxton was clothes-lined by heather and me and slammed his head on the ground. he won the game!! we made smore's and set off awesome and more than likely illegal fireworks. today was really nasty at the lake, the weather officially sucked. so i drove home a little early and rewarded myself with jamba juice and jimmy johns and a nice phone call to my mother cause i miss her. then i got home and watched silence of the lambs, had special k cereal for dinner and watched almost half of the kids blow themselves up cause they obviously don't care about safety precautions when it comes to fireworks. so i spent the weekend portion before the actual fourth better than the actual fourth but all in all it was delightful. 

ps - faith can now ride her bike without her training wheels..proud nanny

pss - faith already told me she was going to miss me when i leave for school and i literally almost started crying.

happy birthday america..thanks for being the best country eva'