to my dearest of newmans

yesterday i went to lagoon with the newmans, and it brought back such fond memories of my childhood. i remember going to utah for the summer was always my favorite thing cause i knew we would be going to lagoon..and then for some reason we stopped doing that, i guess cause once i got older going to lagoon with your family is actually pretty lame. but yesterday was also my last day of work for the newmans. this last week i tried to just smile and not be mean, and what the children always would call me mean for was me basically doing my job..telling them what to do when their parents weren't around. i think i successfully did my job in making sure the peeps were fed and that their jobs were done and most importantly they were happy. 

i have learned a lot from this job, i think more than i have ever learned in any type of schooling. they took me to africa for crying out loud too, even though i got a little sick it was the most amazing experience ever and ill never forget it. i have learn to see what kind of mother ill potentially be. i now know why my parents never let us have our own little gameboy devices and i thank my lucky stars for that. i think i have also realized that im more like my father in the parenting department. and im not all that disappointed by that.

we went to mcdonalds in a gas station for dinner, truly the most romantic place we could find in kaysville. we ate our dinner and then said our goodbyes. my brownest child had to hold on to me like a little monkey and i swear thats when the water works came. i could do nothing but just listen to her talk cause i knew i wouldnt be able to hear that valley girl voice for awhile and my little monny mcmonmon we just held each other and bawled like little blubbering babies. i dont think im gonna know what to do on monday. i mean when i went on vacation the two times i did?! im obviously super nanny. but whenever i would go on vacation i would be super excited to see my family and friends and then i would get tired of all of them and miss the kids again and now its gonna be ten times worse cause i dont have my friends and family to look forward too. but fall break will come fast enough and ill spend my nice little weekend with them and i wont have to boss them around, their new nanny can and i can just watch and smile as she struggles in controlling my little monsters.

i love you guys.